My Picasso

My spirit shattered--scattered on the ground like shards of glass; reflecting what could have been--my hopes, my dreams, my aspirations in little unrecognizable pieces lying broken. Similar to crystals glittering in the sunlight for passer-byes to look upon with admiration; they do not know the carnage that caused this shimmering display. A reflection is caught; it is unidentifiable. It looks like a beautiful masterpiece--yet is does not hang proudly on any gallery wall.

Bumps, bruises and broken hearts have provided this composition. They have helped earn my degree in trepidation, in suspicion, in mistrust. They have solidified themselves into my heart; etched deeply, forever present for all to witness.

Each day, every encounter begins the creation again...sketching wondrous works of art over the old canvas, eradicating the pain of yesterday with a whole new promise of beautiful tomorrow. It is your choice if you add an amazing spray of color or if you paint my life black as night. It is my choice whether I keep what you have added to my life's work...will I chose to paint it new...or paint around your contribution? Stick around and you shall bare witness to what I honor and what I discard for my life's beautiful portrait can only be painted with the hands of love.

And you have....

You have held me...
You have loved me with sincerity when I was not worthy;
You have shown kindness when I deserved nothing but evil;
You have shown me beauty in a world full of ugly;
You held my spirit close...safe, allowing me to let my fears go.
You have dried my tears;
You have listened without judgment;
You have believed in me;
You found me when I was lost;
You have never once gloated over my mistakes;
You have always believed in my power;
You provided nourishment when I was empty;
You brought me back from a flat-lined life too many times to count;
You have given me joy, respect, love, understanding, empathy, friendship.
You took my hand to provide guidance over the treacherous terrain of a life well lived.
You are my friend, my savior, my shinning star, my biggest fan, my ace-in-the-hole. You are just who you must be;
...and I will be forever grateful you have been that for me.