Take a Vacation

If I began a list of all the things I have done to get here, right here, right now, in this place, I think I would go mad. So many poor decisions, insane actions, and thoughtless disregard to my entire well-being that I should not be allowed to take another unsupervised breath. Of course, one always needs to be cautious when wishing for things...you know the whole adage, "Be careful what you wish for". Yeah, I do not wish for someone to smother me into boredom or irritate me to the point of murder but it always sounds appealing to have someone just take over for a moment. Take a vacation from yourself, your issues, your fuck-ups...you know, D...all of the above--leave it all behind and just breathe. Like a day at the beach, breathing, playing, and forgetting for awhile that your life is a mess~~a mess you have done a fantastic job in creating. I know how the game is played. With all I do in life, I can be an amazing game player...my choice, however, is to leave the game-playing to people who have no other substantial shit to fill their days. I desire honesty, integrity, intensity, and will accept nothing less. It is exhausting that with every encounter, I must dodge bullshit, lies, and deception. Let's take a vacation...let's stop all the lies, the drama, and agree to give it all a rest. Take a deep breath, enjoy your life, stop being jealous of others, quit judging what you do not understand and take a vacation from yourself. Learn to laugh again, learn to love again without bitterness or trepidation, learn to be a better man or woman, learn to enjoy who you are, and fall into a life you can revel in. Stop being concerned what everyone else is doing and start being concerned with who you are, who you have become, and how to make the necessary changes to create that person you envisioned so long ago.