Destination Miserable

Each and every day began in the same way...after tossing and turning for hours, she would give up on the notion of sleep, throw off the barely used covers, and begin her day. There was coffee to be made, lists to write, animals to contend with and dreams to avoid. Her days ran into each other, blending into years of unhappiness, of unfulfilled desires, and all she could ask for was speed. Speed to reach a destination she knew would be as empty as her life. Why change? Why ask for anything else than what she was used to, what she was comfortable with? By asking, she understood, the disappointment would be more intense and her spirit would eventually break from the weight of each loss tossed aside to deal with another day.

Loneliness prevailed in her heart, mind and life. It consumed her and at times would hit her with an intensity that took the breath from her lungs. She understood that in order to achieve some resemblance of happy, she must put an end to this aloneness. But how...should she create a plan of action how she will make friends that don't leave her wishing they never entered her world? How do you write a "To Do" list to fix your life without dying from the embarrassment?

Here begins the journey of a woman most of know or at a minimum understand. Filling our life with joy, with passion, with love should be on the top of the priority list yet it seems that all of the mundane tasks take precedence and we arrive at a place we discover makes us miserable. Most unfortunate, we stay in this place of misery for the lack of energy to fight for something more--for something better--for something more fulfilling.

For the past year or so, I have been on an amazing journey of self-discovery, of re- connections, and I have grown with every battle out of darkness. I have toyed with writing a book for eons and this morning after reading a friend's post on FB, this little story entered my brain. I am methodical about my writings and I believe strong characters and a relateable story will be the key to its success. Wish me luck and thank you for continued inspiration.