MY MOUNTAINTOP

If we could take a snapshot of what our insides look like throughout our journey, I think that might demonstrate just how much we have grown and developed into a beautiful representation of what we had in us all along. I am not the person I was a year ago...I always had the potential inside, I just was never willing to fight for it.

I need no other to save me...I need no other to fight my battles...I do not need validation, admiration, praise, not a fucking thing from another--I have all I need within my soul. I know if I deserve respect, admiration, praise--I understand my flaws better than anyone but in turn, I also know the beauty I posses. I feel my struggles more than anyone realizes but I also understand the depth of my successes.

Whatever endeavor I chose to take on, please understand I do not need approval, understanding, support--I am doing just fine on my own and will continue to beat the shit out of this world as long as there is breath in my lungs. I am not one to make excuses, I do not apologize for who I am--let's understand I am not your typical person who has no internal Drill Sargent driving me through life's obstacle courses. I do not live my life to receive validation from others--who the fuck cares what people think?? Honestly, I hate to be bothered--

Really, I should care what someone who has never done a flippin thing to achieve their dreams thinks about me; about who I am?? I wouldn't even know where to muster that wasted energy from. Trust me on this--I know all about me--when I deserve praise, when I deserve admiration, and when I deserve a good ass-kicking. The difference between you and me--I do not need anyone but myself to provide all that I need and if I am perceived as honest--you should be privy to the conversations I have within my soul and you would understand it takes honesty to a whole new level. The struggles, the arguments, the love...from myself, for myself--with love!

Now, get off your ass and do the work--until you get to judge me you need to be at my level so you can get a real good view--Here's the twist...I am not stopping my journey as you try to catch up--work harder, faster, with less sleep, no energy, no time to simply be still. Maybe, just maybe, one day you will find yourself on my mountaintop. Until then I will be taking that hike alone, not looking back and enjoying the peaceful tranquility of an amazing friendship that envelopes me everywhere I go. The friendship I have within--the love I have for the person I am, for the person I have yet to become--it is the mountaintop I get to enjoy simply because I hiked the valleys willingly.