Still Life

After taking the road trip from hell, I realized time is precious and balance is essential to remain fulfilled. I thought how much I truly missed writing and making connections with others. For far too long, I have had my hands full with no real time to write for pleasure and I began to understand that I must do the things that I love in conjunction with the things I must do out of responsibility in order to remain healthy spiritually. I haven't had the time or energy for reflection, contemplation, or adjustments and my heart has suffered. My brain has a difficult time shutting down or focusing on one thought for too long and my entire body can do nothing but go for the ride.

We are creatures of habit...we feel safe within our routines and unfortunately that promotes stationery lives. No growth is possible if we do not accept that change is part of that process. We go through the motions, secretly wishing for a different life but never take the first step to obtain it. Deciding to change, to honor our deepest desires is absolutely terrifying but think of the existence you may be signing up for without necessary updates?

My life is completely different than it was a year ago and I hope it will be different still in another year. I do not want guarantees that everything will remain the same because to me, a still life should only be referring to a photograph.


For about a year and a half I have not had the time to sit still and reflect on all that I have doing--all the differences in my life, the achievements, the set-backs, the let-downs, the broken hearts, the victories, the love. I know how imperative it is to remaining sane to inventory the before-mentioned items to gauge where in the world you are at this moment and create an understanding how you got there. The people that I would have thought were going to be surrounding me at this milestone versus the actual ones is surprising. Only some are disappointing and only some are heartbreaking but overall I am grateful for those who have shared in this journey.