My prayers...

Dear Lord...I haven't done this for quite some time so please be patient with a broken soul. Deep breath...

Dear Lord, please stop madness from taking hold of my heart. Please give me a clear path to whatever happiness I may deserve from this world. Please keep safe my soul, which is as fragile as a butterfly wing. Please help me walk boldly into the fire without getting burned beyond recognition.

Please open my eyes to the suffering in this world and provide the strength to make it better. Please show me the beauty I possess when feeling insecure, allow me to believe I am special, loved, and enjoyed by the people in my life. Please help me stop the whirlwind when I am exhausted. Please let peace envelope my heart, allow it to guide me when the devil has taken hold.

Please give me the grace to forgive those who attempt to destroy my spirit, myself included. Please continue to be the voice of reason, to scream when needed, if only to get my attention...provide warnings when I am about to inflict pain. Please help me brace my heart when I am about to get demolished by hurts that come from unexpected places.

Please remind me to release the death grip on things I cannot control. Please remind me that not having control does not equal being out of control. Please give me the fortitude to understand the difference. Please allow me to feel love, show love, embrace those that need love even when I cannot muster any feeling at all. Remind me that although I may hurt, I need not make another soul hurt just for the company. Please remind me that winning may be simply taking myself out of the fight.

Dear Lord, the idea of having faith is an intangible concept I do not quite grasp. I have had faith in people, possessions, and circumstances that have broken me. Please wash love over my soul so that I may share it with all my demons...to prove once and for all that I am deserving; I am worthy; I am beautiful.