Snow White

Mirror, Mirror on the wall...please help me when I fall. I am falling now, at this moment and I am scared to death to begin this journey. The stakes are way higher this time...there is way too much to lose, too much that can be damaged. I am paralyzed with an out-of-character fear that has taken me off my game and has made me timid. I am unfamiliar with this person who stares back at me from deep within--my footing is unsure, slipping.

Ultimately, the question I must ask and answer for myself is, "Can you fall boldly without over thinking, without sabotaging things? Can you allow yourself to fall into something amazing without self-destructing? Looking in the mirror, I ask myself these questions and my answer... "Yes, I so fucking hope so!!"

Jesie, don't screw this up with your broken-down spirit. Allow yourself time to fall into this man, who has shown unwavering patience and undeniable support. Appreciate all that has been offered to you and enjoy feeling protected, safe, loved. None of your little helpers can come save you from yourself this time, my love. You must remain dedicated to creating a life that you have desired for a lifetime. Give to this man all of you...show him every single part of your soul and just this once you may discover amazing love.

I am not Snow White...I have no magic mirror...I do not have seven helpers to save me from falling and unfortunately, the Wicked Witch lives within my brain. She will continue to convince me to eat the poisonous apple with each beautiful moment I encounter. The battle over my worth, over my deservingness of love continues....with a sure hand, I will pull my sword and I will prepare to battle the demons within my heart put there by people that wanted nothing more than to destroy my spirit.

Mirror, Mirror on the wall, please allow me to fall...with amazing grace and a smile within my heart. Please provide light so I may see clearly the journey I am beginning...please quiet my fears and help me open my heart for what good things are offered to me.